Monday, November 05, 2007
Sunday, November 04, 2007
Thursday, November 01, 2007
Less than 6 weeks to go!!
Been a busy girl lately (as usual). Was working last weekend at the backpackers when one of the kayaking reps came round and asked me if I'd like to come out with them for free for the day, he gave me a free t -shirt (which is very useful for the childcare company for being thrown up on all day) and since I was just wondering what to do on my day off on Monday (and wanting to leave the 4 streets surrounding my house for once - its quite scary when you relaise you havent left these four streets for about 3 months..)I decided to give it a whirl and he had given me a smack on the hand for not having been out kayaking before now and I can harldy say oh I want to do anything and everything and wuss out at this.. Now there has been a reason why I havent been out kayaking.. ie I was terrified of it. So when I said to the company I was happy to do any trip they had space on and then was phoned and told that I would be doing the longest kayaking trip possible I was a tad worried.
But guess what?!!!! I didnt die, I didnt fall in and drown, (I had visions of me trapped under the kayak unable to get out, quietly flapping my arms...) I didnt get swept out to sea, I didnt rely on the other person in the kayak or have to have to guide tow me!! I was quite pleased with myself. I think the guide was a tad worried before we started because I looked so scared I might cry and when he tried to get us to practise our rowing technique standing on the beach I nearly knocked a few backpackers out and nearly fell on my face in the sand and couldnt for the life of me be co-ordinated in any shape or form!
It was a brilliant day!! I was in a double kayak with an Austrian guy who I didnt particularly get on with, whether it was a language barrier or what I dont know.. I mean he'd been travelling ages and been to all sorts of exciting places but he couldnt muster an interesting conversation.. and theres only so long I can talk to myself (about 4 hours or so for future reference).. the people in the other kayaks were cool though so at least I had some conversation and i can actually be quite and enjoy the scenery sometimes... But its quite hard to stay lined up with people (particularly since I was in charge of steering. I was actually much better at steering that I thought I would be.. and on the bright side it was the only time I saw some personality come from whatisname.. after about 5.5 hours of kayaking I was getting a tad tired (and he kept resting because he couldnt row anymore) and then he started complaining we were going in a zig zag and asking if I was drunk.. anyway he didnt get a particularly polite response to that so terrifed him into submission for the rest of the trip which was fine with me! We got to see dolphins and seals which was amazing them being so close by. But didnt get the killer whale swimming behind us like in the posters! I'm absolutely desperate to see killer whales.. one day though one day.. somewhere in the world!!
Worked at kathmandu yesterday.. and spent loads!! Finally got my sleeping bag so everyones very glad they dont have to put up with me talking about that any longer.. although they did amuse themsleves laughing at me rolling around the floor in it!
I do attempt to be a useful employee but there always seems to be something I'm doing that amuses everyone else.. yesterday I was quietly building new rails and went in the store room to get some more things and slid one from the pile.. the only thing was that the stack fell over. You can only imagine my face because when it fell over and all the boxes piled up in order with all our products in (some of which are delicate) just kind of fell over in this dominoe effect round the room.. So I was like oh shit what shall I do? So lugged all these bits of wood up and leant them agaianst the shelving unit.. which proceeded to fall apart and everything just went in a dominoe effect round the other way of the room. So opted to run from the store room and swear I'd never ben in there and then say oh there must have been an earthquake.. no-one went in there for about an hour so I was safe. God I'm so lucky I've got nice bosses who just wet themselves laughing at me!!
Went round Helen's house for tea the other night.. is so nice to be cooked for.. have a proper roast dinner! Her 2 year old likes me cos I have a cool belly button (its pierced). He always asks to see everyones belly buttons cos hes obsessed but mines the best of them all!! (good to have the best something I guess)!
Helen and I went round Rosies for a DVD too which was cool.
Rosies invited me to live with her for 2 weeks and Helen's invited me to live with her for 2 weeks. I'm in 2 minds of whether to take them up on it.. that would sort me until I leave Nelson and i'd have my weekends free because I wouldnt have to work at the backpackers. But I feel really guilty. I've promised to work at Shortbread Cottage and everyones got all their weekends sorted and all of that. Shortbread Cottage feels like my home and it would be weird leaving it.. even though I dont like having to share room nowadays. It would be lovely to live with friends in a real house too though (and have my own room) and its not as if I am actaully really friends with matt and Louise, they keep themselves to themselves.. and I think they are leaving in a couple of weeks.. which reminds me.. maybe I need to be advertising for a replacement for them. Matt and Louise left a random backpacker in charge today who checked in yesterday and she commented that the place could do with a spring clean. She's right. so this weekend I'm going to have my work cut out and scrub the place from top to bottom. But thats the trouble.. when the owner doesnt care about the plaqce neither are the managers who are getting paid $150 a week to work 50 hours a week.. But I actually care about the place.. I went home in my lunch break to check on the backpacker left in charge.. there were several problems which I attempted to sort out but since she hadnt been left any keys and I didnt have any there wasnt alot I could help with.. I did consider rushing home from work to check on the place after work but Rosie and Helen persuaded me it really isnt my responsibility.. and are still trying to persude me to move into their houses.. ah well we'll see how it goes. I'm happy where I am really despite all the moaning and I worry that I'll feel I should be contributing rent at their places and stuff.. I'm worried it would get complicated with all that stuff and wouldnt want to spoil friendships.. Living together is always a test of friendships and relationships!
I took loads of of photos of kayaking.. which I shall put up sometime next week when I get time. I've stayed behind late at Tasman Street to catch up on emails and all that!!
I am now booked up workwise till I leave. I have booked myself 1 day off a week to have some r&r and then every single other day is booked up. I have to ring Kathmandu tomorrow to let them know.. they have me booked for only 1 more day as they do the rostas once a week and I have been becoming less and less available but now I'm booked at both childcare centres everyday their too late. They are not going to be particularly happy and I'm disapointed as I really like working there.. but you cant please everyone and since the Childcare centre pay ALOT more than they do..
I cant believe its only just over 4 weeks till I leave Nelson and just over 5 weeks till I leave NZ!! Its really not that long till I will be in another country.. the world trip will be well under way.. 2nd country.. only god knows how many to go....!!
Anyway am quite looking forward to the weekend ahead at the backpackers, will have a big spring clean and then chill out..
Have been at Tasman Street mostly this week.. this weeks topic is messsy play.. they maye regret letting me run activities... children covered in paint after finger and hand painting and then putting a hose into the sand pit... fun!! (and at least I'm following curriculum - no-one can say i wasnt following curriculum!) Its been great as its been so hot lately.. kayaking was pefect weather and at work we can run around outside with water play.. last nigth I finally got round to going to the local pool for a swim too (only taken me 4 months to get round to it). It was great - I forget how much I like water.. it was blissful being on the sea all day on Monday and I find it really relaxing doing laps in the pool.. though seems I need a new swimsuit (doesnt everything fall apart at once?) First off I leapt in and started to swim and everything kept popping out so held it up while trying to swim to the other end one handed (just as well I was in the slow lane!!) and then asked a rather surprised girl in the pool to tie my straps into knots so it couldnt fall down.. she did a good job though despite her embarrassment at me informing her my bits kept falling out..! Thought that was all sorted but after hanging it on the line to dry I realise its gone completely see through in all the important bits.. why does that always happen to me? swimsuits always go see through after a few months.. clearly I do something wrong..
But guess what?!!!! I didnt die, I didnt fall in and drown, (I had visions of me trapped under the kayak unable to get out, quietly flapping my arms...) I didnt get swept out to sea, I didnt rely on the other person in the kayak or have to have to guide tow me!! I was quite pleased with myself. I think the guide was a tad worried before we started because I looked so scared I might cry and when he tried to get us to practise our rowing technique standing on the beach I nearly knocked a few backpackers out and nearly fell on my face in the sand and couldnt for the life of me be co-ordinated in any shape or form!
It was a brilliant day!! I was in a double kayak with an Austrian guy who I didnt particularly get on with, whether it was a language barrier or what I dont know.. I mean he'd been travelling ages and been to all sorts of exciting places but he couldnt muster an interesting conversation.. and theres only so long I can talk to myself (about 4 hours or so for future reference).. the people in the other kayaks were cool though so at least I had some conversation and i can actually be quite and enjoy the scenery sometimes... But its quite hard to stay lined up with people (particularly since I was in charge of steering. I was actually much better at steering that I thought I would be.. and on the bright side it was the only time I saw some personality come from whatisname.. after about 5.5 hours of kayaking I was getting a tad tired (and he kept resting because he couldnt row anymore) and then he started complaining we were going in a zig zag and asking if I was drunk.. anyway he didnt get a particularly polite response to that so terrifed him into submission for the rest of the trip which was fine with me! We got to see dolphins and seals which was amazing them being so close by. But didnt get the killer whale swimming behind us like in the posters! I'm absolutely desperate to see killer whales.. one day though one day.. somewhere in the world!!
Worked at kathmandu yesterday.. and spent loads!! Finally got my sleeping bag so everyones very glad they dont have to put up with me talking about that any longer.. although they did amuse themsleves laughing at me rolling around the floor in it!
I do attempt to be a useful employee but there always seems to be something I'm doing that amuses everyone else.. yesterday I was quietly building new rails and went in the store room to get some more things and slid one from the pile.. the only thing was that the stack fell over. You can only imagine my face because when it fell over and all the boxes piled up in order with all our products in (some of which are delicate) just kind of fell over in this dominoe effect round the room.. So I was like oh shit what shall I do? So lugged all these bits of wood up and leant them agaianst the shelving unit.. which proceeded to fall apart and everything just went in a dominoe effect round the other way of the room. So opted to run from the store room and swear I'd never ben in there and then say oh there must have been an earthquake.. no-one went in there for about an hour so I was safe. God I'm so lucky I've got nice bosses who just wet themselves laughing at me!!
Went round Helen's house for tea the other night.. is so nice to be cooked for.. have a proper roast dinner! Her 2 year old likes me cos I have a cool belly button (its pierced). He always asks to see everyones belly buttons cos hes obsessed but mines the best of them all!! (good to have the best something I guess)!
Helen and I went round Rosies for a DVD too which was cool.
Rosies invited me to live with her for 2 weeks and Helen's invited me to live with her for 2 weeks. I'm in 2 minds of whether to take them up on it.. that would sort me until I leave Nelson and i'd have my weekends free because I wouldnt have to work at the backpackers. But I feel really guilty. I've promised to work at Shortbread Cottage and everyones got all their weekends sorted and all of that. Shortbread Cottage feels like my home and it would be weird leaving it.. even though I dont like having to share room nowadays. It would be lovely to live with friends in a real house too though (and have my own room) and its not as if I am actaully really friends with matt and Louise, they keep themselves to themselves.. and I think they are leaving in a couple of weeks.. which reminds me.. maybe I need to be advertising for a replacement for them. Matt and Louise left a random backpacker in charge today who checked in yesterday and she commented that the place could do with a spring clean. She's right. so this weekend I'm going to have my work cut out and scrub the place from top to bottom. But thats the trouble.. when the owner doesnt care about the plaqce neither are the managers who are getting paid $150 a week to work 50 hours a week.. But I actually care about the place.. I went home in my lunch break to check on the backpacker left in charge.. there were several problems which I attempted to sort out but since she hadnt been left any keys and I didnt have any there wasnt alot I could help with.. I did consider rushing home from work to check on the place after work but Rosie and Helen persuaded me it really isnt my responsibility.. and are still trying to persude me to move into their houses.. ah well we'll see how it goes. I'm happy where I am really despite all the moaning and I worry that I'll feel I should be contributing rent at their places and stuff.. I'm worried it would get complicated with all that stuff and wouldnt want to spoil friendships.. Living together is always a test of friendships and relationships!
I took loads of of photos of kayaking.. which I shall put up sometime next week when I get time. I've stayed behind late at Tasman Street to catch up on emails and all that!!
I am now booked up workwise till I leave. I have booked myself 1 day off a week to have some r&r and then every single other day is booked up. I have to ring Kathmandu tomorrow to let them know.. they have me booked for only 1 more day as they do the rostas once a week and I have been becoming less and less available but now I'm booked at both childcare centres everyday their too late. They are not going to be particularly happy and I'm disapointed as I really like working there.. but you cant please everyone and since the Childcare centre pay ALOT more than they do..
I cant believe its only just over 4 weeks till I leave Nelson and just over 5 weeks till I leave NZ!! Its really not that long till I will be in another country.. the world trip will be well under way.. 2nd country.. only god knows how many to go....!!
Anyway am quite looking forward to the weekend ahead at the backpackers, will have a big spring clean and then chill out..
Have been at Tasman Street mostly this week.. this weeks topic is messsy play.. they maye regret letting me run activities... children covered in paint after finger and hand painting and then putting a hose into the sand pit... fun!! (and at least I'm following curriculum - no-one can say i wasnt following curriculum!) Its been great as its been so hot lately.. kayaking was pefect weather and at work we can run around outside with water play.. last nigth I finally got round to going to the local pool for a swim too (only taken me 4 months to get round to it). It was great - I forget how much I like water.. it was blissful being on the sea all day on Monday and I find it really relaxing doing laps in the pool.. though seems I need a new swimsuit (doesnt everything fall apart at once?) First off I leapt in and started to swim and everything kept popping out so held it up while trying to swim to the other end one handed (just as well I was in the slow lane!!) and then asked a rather surprised girl in the pool to tie my straps into knots so it couldnt fall down.. she did a good job though despite her embarrassment at me informing her my bits kept falling out..! Thought that was all sorted but after hanging it on the line to dry I realise its gone completely see through in all the important bits.. why does that always happen to me? swimsuits always go see through after a few months.. clearly I do something wrong..
Monday, October 29, 2007
A Naughty little princess?
Did past life regression in my Tuesday night group last week. Was really interesting! Have never been too sure what to believe about past lives but I'll give anything a go..
anyway we did this deep meditation of going down in a life and the numbers going down and down and then when the lift doors opened I was in a past life... I was this beautiful girl with princess curls in this dress that looked like it was the 16th century or so.. I was riding a horse away from a man crying. I betrayed him utterly and had no remorse. Because of my betrayal he was killed. This guy loved me completely but I was not a particularly nice person and used people for my own gain. I have a feeling I wasnt avery nice person in past lives (which is perhaps why in this life I have sometimes felt like a bad person who needs to be punished in this life.. anyway this makes me feel better! cos I really havent been that bad in this life (could be questionable?!!!). Always wondered if the fact I hate anything around my neck like even a scarf in the winter could be because I got hung in a previous life? who knows?!! all interesting anyway! I have got into my Tueday night group. They are a nice bunch of people!
I still go to the Lighthouse on Mondays but it hasnt been as good lately. We had a lady doing tapping last week. But I couldnt keep up with the tapping and got lost (7 taps here, 4 taps there..), last night was colour healing which was quite interesting. Felt relaxed after the meditation anyway.
The trouble with therapy is it puts you in touch with your emotions. After having had therapy a few years ago now (in England) my feelings are no longer bottled up which is great! However, perhaps they are safer bottled up?! The last fortnight I was so grumpy I worried for peoples safety (a joke in case anyone was about to warn the police)
But honestly am I expected to be nice when:
* a customer complains about.. our prices, the queues at our tills, the time it takes for the receipt to print, costing $10 to become a summit club member
and as for customers using me as a clothes horse? I'll be walking past serving another customer when someone will throw clothes at me and when I deign to ask what they want me to do with them they either shout "I dont want them, put them back" or" I want them of course, put them up at the till" either way I'm stupid for not being psychic.. and how dare I be so rude as to ask.. and thats just the shop, as for childcare.. 16 dirty nappies in a row and then water play so 16 children to strip wet clothes off and change.. with lunch to be served in 5 minutes...
I moan and moan but I can see the funny side.. I watched a man f'ing and blinding at this poor girl in the supermarket over the price of milk (I mean honestly how is it this poor 16 year olds fault that the dairy farmers are upping their prices?? and this lady the other day starting shouting at this poor guying praying the weeds, shouting at him for poisoning her and to not do it while there were poeple outide.. anyway made me day when he didnt hear her so came closer to her still spraying so he could hear what she was on about.. she completely freaked and ran to her car speeding off..
So bearing in mind what it is like for the person in the shop I was super polite when i had to take my new broken bag back to the shop.. she was lovely to me too so i guess it works both ways!!
anyway better go, got to have dinner and go to one of my groups!
anyway we did this deep meditation of going down in a life and the numbers going down and down and then when the lift doors opened I was in a past life... I was this beautiful girl with princess curls in this dress that looked like it was the 16th century or so.. I was riding a horse away from a man crying. I betrayed him utterly and had no remorse. Because of my betrayal he was killed. This guy loved me completely but I was not a particularly nice person and used people for my own gain. I have a feeling I wasnt avery nice person in past lives (which is perhaps why in this life I have sometimes felt like a bad person who needs to be punished in this life.. anyway this makes me feel better! cos I really havent been that bad in this life (could be questionable?!!!). Always wondered if the fact I hate anything around my neck like even a scarf in the winter could be because I got hung in a previous life? who knows?!! all interesting anyway! I have got into my Tueday night group. They are a nice bunch of people!
I still go to the Lighthouse on Mondays but it hasnt been as good lately. We had a lady doing tapping last week. But I couldnt keep up with the tapping and got lost (7 taps here, 4 taps there..), last night was colour healing which was quite interesting. Felt relaxed after the meditation anyway.
The trouble with therapy is it puts you in touch with your emotions. After having had therapy a few years ago now (in England) my feelings are no longer bottled up which is great! However, perhaps they are safer bottled up?! The last fortnight I was so grumpy I worried for peoples safety (a joke in case anyone was about to warn the police)
But honestly am I expected to be nice when:
* a customer complains about.. our prices, the queues at our tills, the time it takes for the receipt to print, costing $10 to become a summit club member
and as for customers using me as a clothes horse? I'll be walking past serving another customer when someone will throw clothes at me and when I deign to ask what they want me to do with them they either shout "I dont want them, put them back" or" I want them of course, put them up at the till" either way I'm stupid for not being psychic.. and how dare I be so rude as to ask.. and thats just the shop, as for childcare.. 16 dirty nappies in a row and then water play so 16 children to strip wet clothes off and change.. with lunch to be served in 5 minutes...
I moan and moan but I can see the funny side.. I watched a man f'ing and blinding at this poor girl in the supermarket over the price of milk (I mean honestly how is it this poor 16 year olds fault that the dairy farmers are upping their prices?? and this lady the other day starting shouting at this poor guying praying the weeds, shouting at him for poisoning her and to not do it while there were poeple outide.. anyway made me day when he didnt hear her so came closer to her still spraying so he could hear what she was on about.. she completely freaked and ran to her car speeding off..
So bearing in mind what it is like for the person in the shop I was super polite when i had to take my new broken bag back to the shop.. she was lovely to me too so i guess it works both ways!!
anyway better go, got to have dinner and go to one of my groups!
Monday, October 22, 2007
Have been attempting to take a bit more time off work and a little more time to myself by being social which has been good (I still work 6.5 days a week but that half day is damn good!!) I might even have 2 days off next week!! Might even be able to go for a swim which i've been saying i'll do for months now!! since i bought an eplilator last week so i would be hair free for swimming (and oz) rather than waiting to get legs waxed and faffing around shaving this means I now have to since I spent all that money!!
Am preparing myself for going to Oz! and bought a few things from Kathmandu!! may as well take advantage of my discount before I leave!! am wondering whether to get myself a sleeping bag as I lost mine in the first 6 months I was here and I really havent needed one to be honest but am thinking I'm more likely to over there. The trouble is I hate sleeping in sleeping bags. I get all claustrophobic and start to panic so have been looking at a cheap one that zips out as a duvet from kathmandu, that way at least I have a kind of blanket for when I'm in peoples camper vans or other peoples tents and stuff! I am not getting my own tent to carry around, I like travelling light!! but may be a sleeping bag will be a pain in the arse to carry? oh decisions decisions!! good job I dont have more stressful thinsg on my mind aye!??
dont know why I was in such a crap mood this morning. nothing had actually happened.. am off to one of my spiritual groups tonight though which is nice.. all meditation and healing and stuff at Anna's house, and Sharon lives round the corner from mine so she comes and picks me up so thats all cool. Last week was particularly good!
Am at Tasman Street most of this week which is great!! its so chilled and the weather has been great today so have been chilling outside with the babies! Its been pretty wet for the last couple of months, but I guess thats spring for you.
Have been missing having Phill around as hes gone and started his new job, but hopefully we'll manage to catch up one day aagain before I leave NZ!
Ambers coming to stay on friday night which will be cool, but already have plans to go to a sound healing concert so will have to catch up with her after I guess!! Busy, busy..!
Spent nearly 2 hours on the phone to Louise in Milan the other night which was great, finding out what shes up to and all about the lifestyle and customs in Italy. I ahd no idea boys and girls were brought up so differently or that people preferred to stay in theeir own neighbourhoods with entire families living in blocks of flats or streets rather than move oyut of area when you leave home and get married! Was so great to speak to her and catch up properly as its been impossible to get hold of her since she moved out there 2 months ago!
Am preparing myself for going to Oz! and bought a few things from Kathmandu!! may as well take advantage of my discount before I leave!! am wondering whether to get myself a sleeping bag as I lost mine in the first 6 months I was here and I really havent needed one to be honest but am thinking I'm more likely to over there. The trouble is I hate sleeping in sleeping bags. I get all claustrophobic and start to panic so have been looking at a cheap one that zips out as a duvet from kathmandu, that way at least I have a kind of blanket for when I'm in peoples camper vans or other peoples tents and stuff! I am not getting my own tent to carry around, I like travelling light!! but may be a sleeping bag will be a pain in the arse to carry? oh decisions decisions!! good job I dont have more stressful thinsg on my mind aye!??
dont know why I was in such a crap mood this morning. nothing had actually happened.. am off to one of my spiritual groups tonight though which is nice.. all meditation and healing and stuff at Anna's house, and Sharon lives round the corner from mine so she comes and picks me up so thats all cool. Last week was particularly good!
Am at Tasman Street most of this week which is great!! its so chilled and the weather has been great today so have been chilling outside with the babies! Its been pretty wet for the last couple of months, but I guess thats spring for you.
Have been missing having Phill around as hes gone and started his new job, but hopefully we'll manage to catch up one day aagain before I leave NZ!
Ambers coming to stay on friday night which will be cool, but already have plans to go to a sound healing concert so will have to catch up with her after I guess!! Busy, busy..!
Spent nearly 2 hours on the phone to Louise in Milan the other night which was great, finding out what shes up to and all about the lifestyle and customs in Italy. I ahd no idea boys and girls were brought up so differently or that people preferred to stay in theeir own neighbourhoods with entire families living in blocks of flats or streets rather than move oyut of area when you leave home and get married! Was so great to speak to her and catch up properly as its been impossible to get hold of her since she moved out there 2 months ago!
Dragged out an innocent backpacker (Sam) for a meal out and the cinema the other night. Wanted to go somewhere I hadnt ever been before so went to Cafe Affaire which has these stone grills they bring to your table and then you basically cook the meat yourself! It was cool anyway, yummy meal and good night. We went to see the film The waitress which was surprisingly good, made me laugh and cry and was really glad she left her crappy husband for herself rather than for another man. All to often women get rescued my men in movies and its nice when they rescue themselves!!
Went to see Atonement this weekend with Helen from work. Was a really good film, definately recommend it. Helen reckons I'm a sap when it comes to movies though as I either get petrified and jump out my skin or cry the whole way through! (only a few sniffles for this one though)!
had to share my room last night with nasty backpackers (backpackers are fine when their not in my room!!!) so was in a foul mood this morning as hardly slept. Didnt help that I got shook awake twice in the night with earthquakes, they were really mild but enough to wake me up. Looked them up on the web this morning only 4.8 on richter scale apparently. Am a bit worried Jimmy's going to ask me to move to Gingerbread House as it opens up on the 4th November, but he's a bit of a wuss when it comes to asking me to do stuff so If I just talk at him and dont let him get a word in whenever i see him i'm hoping he wont ask!!
Saturday, October 20, 2007
Tuesday, October 16, 2007
The bell in my head..and conspiracy theories..
Remember me talking about that door bell a few weeks ago? and me saying the boys were playing tricks on me with it (its a portable dorrbell that kept going off randomly and at first it was only me that could hear it..?)
During the last week I was hearing it go off at random times.. but never when anyone else was in the room with me.. I was seriously thinking I was losing the plot. I ransacked my room time and time again and searched for it everywhere and ended up sleeping with ear plugs in or I would leap up in the middle of the night slamming the lights on and shreiking..
Matt swore he'd thrown it away and I almost believed him... until Phill's last night when it was going off every 5 minutes and I finally worked out he must be controlling it. I searched him and all of his stuff but couldnt find it anywhere.. so after I'd had my evening of drinking and it went off while I was having a cry to Louise ( I had a little meltdown - I think all the Kaikoura stuff and all the stuff that builds up within me finally exploded out of me) and the bell going off nearly finished me off!! poor boys.. dont know what Louise did to them but it appeared in my hand shortly after.. although worryingly I dont know whats happened to it since...
I was bloody lucky I didnt have to go to work at kathmandu or the childcare centre the morning after I can tell you! It was my day at the backpackers.. I had a shower so at least I smelt okay (even though I was vomiting at regular intervals) but all my clothes were dirty so pyjamas were the only option and I never got out of them all day.. the neighbours looked at me a bit strangely when I was putting out the rubbish and the backpackers checking in would look me up and own with confusion saying ur um "you in charge of the place?!"
I was completely useless answering peoples questions.. and amusingly the following day I was sitting next to this girl in the lounge and said "you look familiar" and had she stayed here before.. luckily she didnt click that I didnt remember her from the previous day when I had been thoroughly useless checking her in..!
Have been reading this book called Au revoir the last couple of weeks about this Aussie lady who went to live in St Caprais in France in the lot valley. Its like de ja vu as she talks of all these tiny places like prayssac, freyssinnet le gelat and pomerede.. I know all these places so well from when I was little and its weird hearing someone else speak of them.. such a small world! and to make the world even smaller I was reading it at work when Carolyn one of my workmates said oh thats by my friend Mary.. you should meet her... small world aye?!
I cant be the only person in the world that woke up Sunday morning groaning and saying they would never drink again but it really doesnt make me feel any better. I really didnt like myself for the next couple of days, and I couldnt get a clear picture of what had happened as Louise couldnt remember much and hadnt got a clue what she'd said to Phill about me to upset him.. but have been going to my spiritual groups the last 2 nights and went to see Anna today and am feeling much more inspired and happier.
on the bright side I was very introspective all of Sunday (in my miserable hangover) and its given me a chance to think..
I wonder whether I put too much pressure on myself by creating rules and telling myself things like no drinking and no men in my life until 2008 (made that rule in May.. ).. I am not perfect.
In the UK I was always trying to change myself but the only way I knew how to do this was by getting new haircut or by throwing everything away so I could "start again". I accept I am me and that everythings happens for a reason but I refuse to be stagnant and just accept things.. if I did that I'd just carry on making the same mistakes (and as it is it seems I have to learn them about 10 times before they sink in). I am a new and different person from the person I was 10 years ago.. and I am glad about that. I am different from the person I was in Worthing and thats good too.. and I can tell you for sure in another years time I'll be another person again..
The other day I was bitching about people who tell all their personal details on their blogs after I heard in a new story that the mother of that abandoned child "Pumpkin" had a blog in which she'd written all about her extra marital affairs etc.. I mean why would you? did she not think someone might read it and tell her husband.. I've always been very smug saying" Well I dont say anything in mine that I dont mind everyone knowing". In one respect thats right, I enjoy the freedom a blog gives me to express myself and allow people to get to know me..I dont put everythign on it. I eman I would like to butsome things are probably best left to the imagination.. However, I realise it does make me vulnerable. It gives people an insight into me.. allows them to know too much about me.. (maybe my future employers dont want to know about my drunken exploits?!!)
We watched a conspiracy movie the other night called zeitgeist.com (you can download it from the web). It really made me think.
Maybe us people are just pawns in someones game? and we are being controlled and told what to think? I am the perfect candidate for this.. I watch far too much TV and love reading cosmo magazine and keeping up to date with what angelina jolie and brad pit are up to (and of course tomkat).. this movie said that we are being taught not to think and question things...
I always thought ID cards were a good thing.. and didnt see anything wrong with the new american passports which have our DNA on? and micro chips for pets seems to be doing well so whats wrong with chipping our kids so we can find them when they go missing.. and we can find criminals when their on the run.. my theory was well i'm not a bad person so I dont mind them knowing where I am? naeive? me? it truly never occurred to me that they could be used to control us and that all our information is being collected and used..
I'd really like to see the movie again because to be honest I am a bit slow, and I'm so superficial nine of this stuff has ever occurred to me before. I mean i've heard rumours that 9/11 and 7/7 were not terorist accidents but actually government conspiracies but never really thought about how scary a concept it really is..
During the last week I was hearing it go off at random times.. but never when anyone else was in the room with me.. I was seriously thinking I was losing the plot. I ransacked my room time and time again and searched for it everywhere and ended up sleeping with ear plugs in or I would leap up in the middle of the night slamming the lights on and shreiking..
Matt swore he'd thrown it away and I almost believed him... until Phill's last night when it was going off every 5 minutes and I finally worked out he must be controlling it. I searched him and all of his stuff but couldnt find it anywhere.. so after I'd had my evening of drinking and it went off while I was having a cry to Louise ( I had a little meltdown - I think all the Kaikoura stuff and all the stuff that builds up within me finally exploded out of me) and the bell going off nearly finished me off!! poor boys.. dont know what Louise did to them but it appeared in my hand shortly after.. although worryingly I dont know whats happened to it since...
I was bloody lucky I didnt have to go to work at kathmandu or the childcare centre the morning after I can tell you! It was my day at the backpackers.. I had a shower so at least I smelt okay (even though I was vomiting at regular intervals) but all my clothes were dirty so pyjamas were the only option and I never got out of them all day.. the neighbours looked at me a bit strangely when I was putting out the rubbish and the backpackers checking in would look me up and own with confusion saying ur um "you in charge of the place?!"
I was completely useless answering peoples questions.. and amusingly the following day I was sitting next to this girl in the lounge and said "you look familiar" and had she stayed here before.. luckily she didnt click that I didnt remember her from the previous day when I had been thoroughly useless checking her in..!
Have been reading this book called Au revoir the last couple of weeks about this Aussie lady who went to live in St Caprais in France in the lot valley. Its like de ja vu as she talks of all these tiny places like prayssac, freyssinnet le gelat and pomerede.. I know all these places so well from when I was little and its weird hearing someone else speak of them.. such a small world! and to make the world even smaller I was reading it at work when Carolyn one of my workmates said oh thats by my friend Mary.. you should meet her... small world aye?!
I cant be the only person in the world that woke up Sunday morning groaning and saying they would never drink again but it really doesnt make me feel any better. I really didnt like myself for the next couple of days, and I couldnt get a clear picture of what had happened as Louise couldnt remember much and hadnt got a clue what she'd said to Phill about me to upset him.. but have been going to my spiritual groups the last 2 nights and went to see Anna today and am feeling much more inspired and happier.
on the bright side I was very introspective all of Sunday (in my miserable hangover) and its given me a chance to think..
I wonder whether I put too much pressure on myself by creating rules and telling myself things like no drinking and no men in my life until 2008 (made that rule in May.. ).. I am not perfect.
In the UK I was always trying to change myself but the only way I knew how to do this was by getting new haircut or by throwing everything away so I could "start again". I accept I am me and that everythings happens for a reason but I refuse to be stagnant and just accept things.. if I did that I'd just carry on making the same mistakes (and as it is it seems I have to learn them about 10 times before they sink in). I am a new and different person from the person I was 10 years ago.. and I am glad about that. I am different from the person I was in Worthing and thats good too.. and I can tell you for sure in another years time I'll be another person again..
The other day I was bitching about people who tell all their personal details on their blogs after I heard in a new story that the mother of that abandoned child "Pumpkin" had a blog in which she'd written all about her extra marital affairs etc.. I mean why would you? did she not think someone might read it and tell her husband.. I've always been very smug saying" Well I dont say anything in mine that I dont mind everyone knowing". In one respect thats right, I enjoy the freedom a blog gives me to express myself and allow people to get to know me..I dont put everythign on it. I eman I would like to butsome things are probably best left to the imagination.. However, I realise it does make me vulnerable. It gives people an insight into me.. allows them to know too much about me.. (maybe my future employers dont want to know about my drunken exploits?!!)
We watched a conspiracy movie the other night called zeitgeist.com (you can download it from the web). It really made me think.
Maybe us people are just pawns in someones game? and we are being controlled and told what to think? I am the perfect candidate for this.. I watch far too much TV and love reading cosmo magazine and keeping up to date with what angelina jolie and brad pit are up to (and of course tomkat).. this movie said that we are being taught not to think and question things...
I always thought ID cards were a good thing.. and didnt see anything wrong with the new american passports which have our DNA on? and micro chips for pets seems to be doing well so whats wrong with chipping our kids so we can find them when they go missing.. and we can find criminals when their on the run.. my theory was well i'm not a bad person so I dont mind them knowing where I am? naeive? me? it truly never occurred to me that they could be used to control us and that all our information is being collected and used..
I'd really like to see the movie again because to be honest I am a bit slow, and I'm so superficial nine of this stuff has ever occurred to me before. I mean i've heard rumours that 9/11 and 7/7 were not terorist accidents but actually government conspiracies but never really thought about how scary a concept it really is..
Monday, October 15, 2007
Why I am never going to drink again!
Oh god forbid! I woke up sunday morning and felt so hideous I couldnt decide whether to curl up and die, vomit or cry first.. It was 6am (I always wake up bright and early after drinking!) and it took me 15 minutes to find my phone (to find out the time and to check who on earth I had called in my drunken stupidity).. I knew I was in a bad way when I discovered that the phone was in my hand and I had slept clutching it..
Apologies won on the list of what to do first though as I could hear Phill getting up and ready for his early flight out of town. I actualyl had very little recolection of the night before and didnt know if I had done anything wrong but had a fair feeling I probably had and wanted to catch him before he left.. (we had gone out for goodbye drinks). Theres only so much you can apologise though - you cant turn back the clock.
Its all my fault.. I've been working way too much lately and my life has been ridiculously mundane. I go to work.. I come home.. watch Shortland Street and then go to bed.. and exactly the same happens the next day.. and the next and the next.. I've been close to explosion the last couple of days and having this feeling I need to let my hair down and have some fun. I should have taken a day off or texted my friends (who i have neglected comepletely lately) and gone out. If i'd met up with then for a drink or two, a meal or the cinema it wouldnt have built up into this explosion of feelings and the need to get plastered.
I worked till 8pm Thursday and then 10am till 10pm Friday for the kathmandu sale. I was so knackered - and so jealous of Phill when he came in having had a great nigth out on the town. I missed the one bloody night Nelson has street parades and parties and dance tents.. I was gutted. But theres me work as usual the next day.. By 9am.. (yes that is AM thats not a typo) i was craving vo9dka (no i'm not an alcoholic) and infromed everyone at work i was going to get extremely drunk after work that day!
It being Phills last night Matt, Louise and I wanted to go out and have a few goodbye drinks.. You'd have thought I might have learned from my mistakes by now but it seems not..
By 5:10pm I was armed with a vodka and orange (on an empty stomach). I did cook dinner which is one good thing I suppose.. not that it saved me. But I suppose I would have been drunk alot earlier...
After a few drinks we went down town as phills new workmates were metting up for a drink.. they seemed nice and thankfully they left before I got messy..
I dotn even remember most of it to be honest.. just these little images to torture me.. and of course the many photos people kindly took of me!!!
I should have known to stop when people in the toilets started saying hello.. of your the girl knocking all the bar stools over... ( I may have knocked one or 2 over once or twice...)
Anyway.. gotta go .. i shall continue telling you this tortuous story after work another day!!
I am taking the day off work tomorrow and have a doctors appointment (nothing serious - no need to panic!)
Apologies won on the list of what to do first though as I could hear Phill getting up and ready for his early flight out of town. I actualyl had very little recolection of the night before and didnt know if I had done anything wrong but had a fair feeling I probably had and wanted to catch him before he left.. (we had gone out for goodbye drinks). Theres only so much you can apologise though - you cant turn back the clock.
Its all my fault.. I've been working way too much lately and my life has been ridiculously mundane. I go to work.. I come home.. watch Shortland Street and then go to bed.. and exactly the same happens the next day.. and the next and the next.. I've been close to explosion the last couple of days and having this feeling I need to let my hair down and have some fun. I should have taken a day off or texted my friends (who i have neglected comepletely lately) and gone out. If i'd met up with then for a drink or two, a meal or the cinema it wouldnt have built up into this explosion of feelings and the need to get plastered.
I worked till 8pm Thursday and then 10am till 10pm Friday for the kathmandu sale. I was so knackered - and so jealous of Phill when he came in having had a great nigth out on the town. I missed the one bloody night Nelson has street parades and parties and dance tents.. I was gutted. But theres me work as usual the next day.. By 9am.. (yes that is AM thats not a typo) i was craving vo9dka (no i'm not an alcoholic) and infromed everyone at work i was going to get extremely drunk after work that day!
It being Phills last night Matt, Louise and I wanted to go out and have a few goodbye drinks.. You'd have thought I might have learned from my mistakes by now but it seems not..
By 5:10pm I was armed with a vodka and orange (on an empty stomach). I did cook dinner which is one good thing I suppose.. not that it saved me. But I suppose I would have been drunk alot earlier...
After a few drinks we went down town as phills new workmates were metting up for a drink.. they seemed nice and thankfully they left before I got messy..
I dotn even remember most of it to be honest.. just these little images to torture me.. and of course the many photos people kindly took of me!!!
I should have known to stop when people in the toilets started saying hello.. of your the girl knocking all the bar stools over... ( I may have knocked one or 2 over once or twice...)
Anyway.. gotta go .. i shall continue telling you this tortuous story after work another day!!
I am taking the day off work tomorrow and have a doctors appointment (nothing serious - no need to panic!)
Sunday, October 14, 2007
I am alive! just been working too bloody hard lately and been generally crap! But on the bright side my email box was nice and healthy when I checked it just now - so that made me feel popular which is always good!
am working at Tassie street all this week which is great and not too strenuous and I will probably stay behind each day after work to catch up on emails and all that stuff but for now some things never change and I need to get home in time for Shortland Street!
and you can look forward to update of my drunken escapades at the weekend!!
am working at Tassie street all this week which is great and not too strenuous and I will probably stay behind each day after work to catch up on emails and all that stuff but for now some things never change and I need to get home in time for Shortland Street!
and you can look forward to update of my drunken escapades at the weekend!!
Thursday, October 04, 2007
So the below photos are the walk phill and I went on the other day.. I feel like such a slacker that iI hadnt done the walk before. You'd have thought that the amount of time I've spent in Nelson that I'd have done all the local walks but no.. I've been far too lazy.. must get round to dunn mountain or whatever its called soon.
Anyway it was a nice walk, not the prefect weather were used to in Nelson but still good to get out of town and sit down and have a chat at the top.
I've been unusually slack in updating my blog the last couple of weeks so at least you've been spared the details of what I had for tea last night and all that! But this of course means I cant for the life of me remember what I've been doing.
Phill, Morgan, Matt and I went out for the night last week which was cool. Phill had passed his bus driving test so bought a bottle of red wine to celebrate so we played cards (you know all the normal drunken night ones like "shithead" etc which i have to be retaught every time I get drunk because last time I got taught I was drunk and cant remember). Morgan (this girl with the coolest alabama accent) bought a couple more bottles and then we ended up down town. I've always amused myself laughing at the people dancing on the tables at the Grumpy Mole (for some reason there are always people dancing on them?) but of course karma always gets you in the end because of course I ended up being one of those people, only I was a tad tipsy and its actually quite complicated to dance on tables and stay on it at the same time.. Morgan looked a lot better as you can see.. and.. the night started off with her dancing on the barrells in a bar somewhere.. (or did it end that way.. who knows?!
I was upset with myself (but I've got over it) as when I left kaikoura I told myself it was another new beginning and on no circumstances was I allowed to drink and get drunk (and lots of other things - you know me I like my lists!) until 2008.. so anyway thats that one out the window.. but as long as it isnt a regular habit I suppose I dont have to beat myself up about it.. everyones alllowed to have a drink or two every now and then right?!
Everyone was expecting me to have a major hang over the next day but I was fine.. or so I thought I was.. I'd fallen alseep in my new kathmnadu outfit (which funnily enough I'd been telling people at work was as comfy as Pyjamas) and so woke up in them. Anyway on the walk to work I realised that actually I was floating all over the place and that actually I probably hadnt sobered up yet.. Thank god it was only a short day at work!! Was very happy to collapse on the sofa when I got in from work.. Its been pretty quiet at the backpackers lately which has been cool. Phill's ended up being long term which has been great. I'm going to be really upset when he leaves to start his new job on the 14th. I like having someone to come home to in the evenings. I mean backpackers are all very nice and all but the same old conversation in mind numbing, its nice to come hoem ande someone ask how your day was.. and its nice to have someone to cook for and vice versa (I'd better not write too much as he's going to read this most likely!) But I havent clicked with someone in a long time and perhaps never been so honest about myself with anyone.. and that says alot. (see.. Phill why I was so shy about giving you my blog address?)
Have had a much quieter 2 weeks at work thank god! Have a day off today but then I will be working for 16 days straight before I get another day off.. hmnn yep I'm going to be a tad grouchy!
Was feeling a bit emotional the other day because I hadnt had enough sleep.. why do I need 10 hours sleep a night? those people who only need 6 dont know how lucky they are!! (but then again I love sleeping so maybe I am bloody lucky!) I think I just always want what I cant have.. I drive myself mad.. when I'm at kathmandu I miss the childcare centre and when I'm at the childcare centre I miss kathmandu!! (what can you do?!) Probably says alot about me, probably a personality trait I need to knock on the head.
Michelle (someone I work with) and I were in the corner near the sleep room with a couple of babies when the glass doors we were right by started shaking. I looked at them because it looked and sounded like someone was rattling them trying to get in. I was really confused at first until Michelle shouted out "Earthquake.. turtles everybody" and everyone leapt down into turtle positions, staff enveloping babies with their bodies. So I grabbed the nearest baby and watched stuff moving around, a puzzle fell off the shelf and the butterflies hanging from the roof were flying around. Apparently it was only 5.8 on the richter scale but it felt pretty shaky!
Been watching loads of DVD's this week (Phill and I persuaded Matt to let us borrow the DVD player from their flat) so thats a break from the crap on tv. Saw Apocolypto, Hot Fuzz, Scenes of a Sexual Nature and The Barber Shop this week. Apocolypto was really cool. I was convinced I would hate it and was calling it a boys film but it was really good and have got me really curious about the mayans and all that.. I must be really ignorant because I keep hearing about all this stuff I'd never heard of before. To be quite honest when I heard of the mayans for the first time it was in relation to the third planet and psychics talking in mayan to the dead mayans and the extra terrestial beings out there (or something like that) and I wasnt sure about it all.. all seemed a bit far fetched so when I found out that mayans actually existed I was quite taken aback (yes I know I worry about myself too). But in my defence my school history consisted of learning about the victorians for what seemed like 5 years on the trot and them jumping to high school where I learnt about russian history for 4 years.. any other years of history I know nothing about...
Had been watching way too much tv lately so went to the cinema last night to see "The Italian" which despite the name is in russian with subtitles. Have been meaning to see it for ages so was glad to finally get there. they have a good alternative films cinema here in nelson and have wanted to go for ages.. I can see why most foreign films dont make it mainstream but I love watching them..
Anyway it was a nice walk, not the prefect weather were used to in Nelson but still good to get out of town and sit down and have a chat at the top.
I've been unusually slack in updating my blog the last couple of weeks so at least you've been spared the details of what I had for tea last night and all that! But this of course means I cant for the life of me remember what I've been doing.
Phill, Morgan, Matt and I went out for the night last week which was cool. Phill had passed his bus driving test so bought a bottle of red wine to celebrate so we played cards (you know all the normal drunken night ones like "shithead" etc which i have to be retaught every time I get drunk because last time I got taught I was drunk and cant remember). Morgan (this girl with the coolest alabama accent) bought a couple more bottles and then we ended up down town. I've always amused myself laughing at the people dancing on the tables at the Grumpy Mole (for some reason there are always people dancing on them?) but of course karma always gets you in the end because of course I ended up being one of those people, only I was a tad tipsy and its actually quite complicated to dance on tables and stay on it at the same time.. Morgan looked a lot better as you can see.. and.. the night started off with her dancing on the barrells in a bar somewhere.. (or did it end that way.. who knows?!
I was upset with myself (but I've got over it) as when I left kaikoura I told myself it was another new beginning and on no circumstances was I allowed to drink and get drunk (and lots of other things - you know me I like my lists!) until 2008.. so anyway thats that one out the window.. but as long as it isnt a regular habit I suppose I dont have to beat myself up about it.. everyones alllowed to have a drink or two every now and then right?!
Everyone was expecting me to have a major hang over the next day but I was fine.. or so I thought I was.. I'd fallen alseep in my new kathmnadu outfit (which funnily enough I'd been telling people at work was as comfy as Pyjamas) and so woke up in them. Anyway on the walk to work I realised that actually I was floating all over the place and that actually I probably hadnt sobered up yet.. Thank god it was only a short day at work!! Was very happy to collapse on the sofa when I got in from work.. Its been pretty quiet at the backpackers lately which has been cool. Phill's ended up being long term which has been great. I'm going to be really upset when he leaves to start his new job on the 14th. I like having someone to come home to in the evenings. I mean backpackers are all very nice and all but the same old conversation in mind numbing, its nice to come hoem ande someone ask how your day was.. and its nice to have someone to cook for and vice versa (I'd better not write too much as he's going to read this most likely!) But I havent clicked with someone in a long time and perhaps never been so honest about myself with anyone.. and that says alot. (see.. Phill why I was so shy about giving you my blog address?)
Have had a much quieter 2 weeks at work thank god! Have a day off today but then I will be working for 16 days straight before I get another day off.. hmnn yep I'm going to be a tad grouchy!
Was feeling a bit emotional the other day because I hadnt had enough sleep.. why do I need 10 hours sleep a night? those people who only need 6 dont know how lucky they are!! (but then again I love sleeping so maybe I am bloody lucky!) I think I just always want what I cant have.. I drive myself mad.. when I'm at kathmandu I miss the childcare centre and when I'm at the childcare centre I miss kathmandu!! (what can you do?!) Probably says alot about me, probably a personality trait I need to knock on the head.
Michelle (someone I work with) and I were in the corner near the sleep room with a couple of babies when the glass doors we were right by started shaking. I looked at them because it looked and sounded like someone was rattling them trying to get in. I was really confused at first until Michelle shouted out "Earthquake.. turtles everybody" and everyone leapt down into turtle positions, staff enveloping babies with their bodies. So I grabbed the nearest baby and watched stuff moving around, a puzzle fell off the shelf and the butterflies hanging from the roof were flying around. Apparently it was only 5.8 on the richter scale but it felt pretty shaky!
Been watching loads of DVD's this week (Phill and I persuaded Matt to let us borrow the DVD player from their flat) so thats a break from the crap on tv. Saw Apocolypto, Hot Fuzz, Scenes of a Sexual Nature and The Barber Shop this week. Apocolypto was really cool. I was convinced I would hate it and was calling it a boys film but it was really good and have got me really curious about the mayans and all that.. I must be really ignorant because I keep hearing about all this stuff I'd never heard of before. To be quite honest when I heard of the mayans for the first time it was in relation to the third planet and psychics talking in mayan to the dead mayans and the extra terrestial beings out there (or something like that) and I wasnt sure about it all.. all seemed a bit far fetched so when I found out that mayans actually existed I was quite taken aback (yes I know I worry about myself too). But in my defence my school history consisted of learning about the victorians for what seemed like 5 years on the trot and them jumping to high school where I learnt about russian history for 4 years.. any other years of history I know nothing about...
Had been watching way too much tv lately so went to the cinema last night to see "The Italian" which despite the name is in russian with subtitles. Have been meaning to see it for ages so was glad to finally get there. they have a good alternative films cinema here in nelson and have wanted to go for ages.. I can see why most foreign films dont make it mainstream but I love watching them..
Thursday, September 27, 2007
Tuesday, September 25, 2007
Caught up with my family on the phone at the weekend. Phoned mum and dad and then Amanda. It seems "everyone" has been, or is sick. My grandma is in hospital again after another fall (shes only been out of hospital about a week), my sister had a cyst removed and my Aunty Barbara has been in hospital with suspected DVT. So hope all of you get well soon if any of you are reading this.
When I phoned my sister she put it on speakerphone and my neice got some kind of giggling doll for me to listen to which was very cute of her!! I've been thinking what an earth to get them for xmas.. "Christmas" you are probably shouting out at me... and complaining I am insane for even thinking of it.. but in my defence the last posting date is 11th November.. and they will be the only people who get presents this year. (sorry but travelling is not designed to make you be rich!)
There has been an English guy (from East Grinstead to be precise) staying at the backpackers the last fortnight, he has been travelling the last 5 years so I was finally able to get my questions about travel insurance answered and it seems world nomads is the only way to go!
Eva phoned me at the weekend. I tried to ring her but couldnt get through so she rang me back! she had found an international calling card like the ones I use here so it was super cheap to call NZ!! It was really nice to speak to her too!
Everyone keeps teasing me about going to Bourke in Oz (i.e why on earth I would want to go to that dump..but I keep insisting I just want to get off the tourist trail!!) Oh well however bad it is all experiences are what make us ae?! I'm still excited!! Even though its going to be the plongest bus journey ever to get there!!
Talking about Oz we had our product training at Kathmandu and I have found the perfect outfit to wear there. I love it! Dallen had circled outfits for us to all try on and I was lucky as mine was lovely! (I think he was too scared to make me try on most things as he had been very strictly instructed by myself!!)
Anyway it was a good evening.. thai food, wine, trying on clothes and putting up tents!! (and I get paid for that!!)
I had my legs waxed yesterday.. it was pretty funny as I had thought about 6 weeks ago when I bought new black work trousers from the warehouse that my legs seems to be changing colour.. going grey and almost black.. so I tried really hard exfoliating but it wouldnt go away.. but I still carried on wearing them everyday not really noticing how bad it was getting.. until she started the waxing and the strips went black and you could see the strip she had waxed and the bit she hadnt so clearly that I had a white stripe and a black stripe.. kinda scary.. not only have our clothes got fomaldehyde in they have dye that dyes us... anyway I'm back to my normal colour now!! (and no hairs!!) The warehouse trousers have already worn so thin that they fell apart after only 6 weeks wear so I guess it wasnt money saving at all to buy cheap trousers..! For those of you that dont know what the warehouse is its probably the English equivelent to Primark or something I guess (so somethings last forever and other things collapse in 2 seconds)excent everyone shops at the warehouse and the adds on tv are so catchy that you find yourself singing along.. "Warehouse.. where everyone gets a bargain"!!
I went round Ambers house yesterday afternoon, shes not staying there unfortuantely though and shes going to be leaving Nelson.. which is a bugger as I liked the idea of having a new friend in town. Their going to be living in the sticks in the golden bay - only accessible by boat or helicopter.. so guess I wont be visiting that often then!!
The boys (by that I mean Matt and Phillip) have been enjoying winding me up.. there was this strange ding dong sound that was going on for days and it seemed only I could hear it until finally I saw Matt with a smirk on his face and realised that it wasnt just me.. but it did take us days to find where it was coming from. I pulled the place apart sorting out and throwing out rubbish until eventually we found an old doorbell in the cupboard this morning..! I know I should have smashed it with an axe or something because I can just imagine they havent finshed their fun with that.. Matts been finding the bins full of all the crap I've been throwing out (DVD players, fax machines...) and hes been winding me up.. last night I found the fax machine in my bed.. so he found it in the washing machine this morning..! We clearly have too much time on our hands!!
Actually I have a couple of days off which is really weird!! I dont know what to do with myself!! I think Phill and I are going to go on a walk this afternoon though so that should keep us occupied. but "panic" hes one of those "active" people so it may not be as fun as I hope!! (Kathmandus full of active people too.. makes me feel like I'm a slug or something!)
Nookies been back in contact from down south. but he's having a tanty because I won't go down south and see him before I leave. He lives about as far away as he could do.. it would take me at least 2 days by bus since I'm not hitchiking nowadays.. so if he wants to see me he'll have to come up here.. but dont think he will and I'm okay with that.
When I phoned my sister she put it on speakerphone and my neice got some kind of giggling doll for me to listen to which was very cute of her!! I've been thinking what an earth to get them for xmas.. "Christmas" you are probably shouting out at me... and complaining I am insane for even thinking of it.. but in my defence the last posting date is 11th November.. and they will be the only people who get presents this year. (sorry but travelling is not designed to make you be rich!)
There has been an English guy (from East Grinstead to be precise) staying at the backpackers the last fortnight, he has been travelling the last 5 years so I was finally able to get my questions about travel insurance answered and it seems world nomads is the only way to go!
Eva phoned me at the weekend. I tried to ring her but couldnt get through so she rang me back! she had found an international calling card like the ones I use here so it was super cheap to call NZ!! It was really nice to speak to her too!
Everyone keeps teasing me about going to Bourke in Oz (i.e why on earth I would want to go to that dump..but I keep insisting I just want to get off the tourist trail!!) Oh well however bad it is all experiences are what make us ae?! I'm still excited!! Even though its going to be the plongest bus journey ever to get there!!
Talking about Oz we had our product training at Kathmandu and I have found the perfect outfit to wear there. I love it! Dallen had circled outfits for us to all try on and I was lucky as mine was lovely! (I think he was too scared to make me try on most things as he had been very strictly instructed by myself!!)
Anyway it was a good evening.. thai food, wine, trying on clothes and putting up tents!! (and I get paid for that!!)
I had my legs waxed yesterday.. it was pretty funny as I had thought about 6 weeks ago when I bought new black work trousers from the warehouse that my legs seems to be changing colour.. going grey and almost black.. so I tried really hard exfoliating but it wouldnt go away.. but I still carried on wearing them everyday not really noticing how bad it was getting.. until she started the waxing and the strips went black and you could see the strip she had waxed and the bit she hadnt so clearly that I had a white stripe and a black stripe.. kinda scary.. not only have our clothes got fomaldehyde in they have dye that dyes us... anyway I'm back to my normal colour now!! (and no hairs!!) The warehouse trousers have already worn so thin that they fell apart after only 6 weeks wear so I guess it wasnt money saving at all to buy cheap trousers..! For those of you that dont know what the warehouse is its probably the English equivelent to Primark or something I guess (so somethings last forever and other things collapse in 2 seconds)excent everyone shops at the warehouse and the adds on tv are so catchy that you find yourself singing along.. "Warehouse.. where everyone gets a bargain"!!
I went round Ambers house yesterday afternoon, shes not staying there unfortuantely though and shes going to be leaving Nelson.. which is a bugger as I liked the idea of having a new friend in town. Their going to be living in the sticks in the golden bay - only accessible by boat or helicopter.. so guess I wont be visiting that often then!!
The boys (by that I mean Matt and Phillip) have been enjoying winding me up.. there was this strange ding dong sound that was going on for days and it seemed only I could hear it until finally I saw Matt with a smirk on his face and realised that it wasnt just me.. but it did take us days to find where it was coming from. I pulled the place apart sorting out and throwing out rubbish until eventually we found an old doorbell in the cupboard this morning..! I know I should have smashed it with an axe or something because I can just imagine they havent finshed their fun with that.. Matts been finding the bins full of all the crap I've been throwing out (DVD players, fax machines...) and hes been winding me up.. last night I found the fax machine in my bed.. so he found it in the washing machine this morning..! We clearly have too much time on our hands!!
Actually I have a couple of days off which is really weird!! I dont know what to do with myself!! I think Phill and I are going to go on a walk this afternoon though so that should keep us occupied. but "panic" hes one of those "active" people so it may not be as fun as I hope!! (Kathmandus full of active people too.. makes me feel like I'm a slug or something!)
Nookies been back in contact from down south. but he's having a tanty because I won't go down south and see him before I leave. He lives about as far away as he could do.. it would take me at least 2 days by bus since I'm not hitchiking nowadays.. so if he wants to see me he'll have to come up here.. but dont think he will and I'm okay with that.
Thursday, September 20, 2007
why would I ever leave?
Sometimes I wonder why on earth I would ever want to leave Nelson. Its warm, sunny, vibrant, it has the sea and mountains, and is arty and spiritual. What more could I want. I really do love it here.
But I've got this ithcy feet desire that must be satiated - and the onlt way I can do that is to get on a plane and see new places.. hopefully one day I'll be back!!
When i do settle somewhere I want it to be somewhere I can have my feet in the earth with space around me and beautiful surroundings!!
Am very excited as I have now been at kathmandu long enough to get staff discount and its a fantastic one!! 60 or 70% off!!! woopee!!!!! So I will be buying the shorts I desperately need from work then!!!
We had a trying on sess the other day and we have to work this Tuesday doing product training which basicaly means try everything on, play with it and get fed pizza and wine.. sorted!! (obviously I have to actually remember facts and stuff about our products too but the best way to learn is to try them out!)
Its Friday night and I've stayed behind at The Child care Centre to catch up with emails and my blog and chewck online bank balances.. NZ very healty.. UK very unhealthy. I know if I went back to the UK I could sort it out by working my butt off but I dont want to go back. Its a really hard situation.
Have been thinking about doing a working visa in Canada at some point..
Its my weekend at the backpackers this weekend and it seems pretty busy.. but dont mind! its beautifully sunny so will read my book in the afternoon in the sunsine! at work today the kids have been doing water paly and running round in the nappies and sunhats.. (and its only spring!) god I love nelson!!
But I've got this ithcy feet desire that must be satiated - and the onlt way I can do that is to get on a plane and see new places.. hopefully one day I'll be back!!
When i do settle somewhere I want it to be somewhere I can have my feet in the earth with space around me and beautiful surroundings!!
Am very excited as I have now been at kathmandu long enough to get staff discount and its a fantastic one!! 60 or 70% off!!! woopee!!!!! So I will be buying the shorts I desperately need from work then!!!
We had a trying on sess the other day and we have to work this Tuesday doing product training which basicaly means try everything on, play with it and get fed pizza and wine.. sorted!! (obviously I have to actually remember facts and stuff about our products too but the best way to learn is to try them out!)
Its Friday night and I've stayed behind at The Child care Centre to catch up with emails and my blog and chewck online bank balances.. NZ very healty.. UK very unhealthy. I know if I went back to the UK I could sort it out by working my butt off but I dont want to go back. Its a really hard situation.
Have been thinking about doing a working visa in Canada at some point..
Its my weekend at the backpackers this weekend and it seems pretty busy.. but dont mind! its beautifully sunny so will read my book in the afternoon in the sunsine! at work today the kids have been doing water paly and running round in the nappies and sunhats.. (and its only spring!) god I love nelson!!
Saturday, September 15, 2007
Google Earth
OMG!!! how cool is it!!? I finally got round to checking out google earth as its free on the library computers and I could see my house here, my parents house etc etc.. wow!! Now I want the full address of the place I will be staying in Bourke just do can see it properly!! (just to see how much red dust surrounds it!!)
Spookily Similar!
I have a new friend who is spookily similar to me. Literally we barely need to ask if we think this or that about something or if something has happened to one of us.. we already know!
It is really quite scary how much we have in common! But great!! She's been sharing my room for the last week and its like a sleepover every night.. we cant stop talking!!
Unfortuntely she moves out tomorrow.. but shes renting a house in Nelson so we can still be friends which is cool! and she says I can have a soak in her bath (and she has lush products - god I miss the shop lush) - I mean what could be better than that?!
Its so nice to have a friend I can talk to though. I really miss my freinds in the UK who know the real me.. and you cant exactly scare people you've only known 5 minutes by telling them all your secrets.
I have been working by butt off this week, I was so tired Saturday night I could have cried! We worked late every night.. thankfully they rewarded us with wine, chocolate and pizza but even so I was shattered! However, pay day will be nice! I am not sure how mnay days I am doing this week or whether I will end up back at the child care centre more.. who knows.. I feel pretty confident there now though.. even though we got a new computer system for us to learn - just because I had got used to the last one! But the bright side is that I dont feel inferior to the other staff anynmore as they are learning it at the same time as me!!
I havent had much time to read lately because I work 8-8 and then fall into bed.. but have started on Bill brysons "The Lost Continent". Realsied I read on average 2 books a week so have probably read 208 books while I've been in NZ - and I reckon thats a conservative estimate!
I got a text from Heather the owner of the Child Care Company this week who told me to dump Kathmnadu and come and work for them as they loved me more! So nice to be missed!!
Today I have been enjoying my day off.. I was ridiculously excited as it has been almost 2 weeks. Amber and I have been shooping and stuff.. we spent 3 hours in the Warehouse trying to find me some shorts (to no avail!) but we did find me a skirt in Farmers so I am almost set up for summer!
I just got a text from my friend Vicki from Kaikoura (remember I used to hang out with her lots?). She gave birth this week to a little baby boy! I would so love to pop back and see it!
My friend Laura from the UK (in Worthing) who I used to have dinner with once a week is pregnant too. She is due on 2nd February. Congratulations Laura!! Am so excited for you! I think by the time I get back to the UK my neices are going to be starting school and everyone I know will have children!!
I have been thinking about doing my Canadian visa, it sounds so beautiful there.. I work with a few canadians and they make it sound great!! I've also met several people from Quebec since I started travelling so it would be great to visit them!
It is really quite scary how much we have in common! But great!! She's been sharing my room for the last week and its like a sleepover every night.. we cant stop talking!!
Unfortuntely she moves out tomorrow.. but shes renting a house in Nelson so we can still be friends which is cool! and she says I can have a soak in her bath (and she has lush products - god I miss the shop lush) - I mean what could be better than that?!
Its so nice to have a friend I can talk to though. I really miss my freinds in the UK who know the real me.. and you cant exactly scare people you've only known 5 minutes by telling them all your secrets.
I have been working by butt off this week, I was so tired Saturday night I could have cried! We worked late every night.. thankfully they rewarded us with wine, chocolate and pizza but even so I was shattered! However, pay day will be nice! I am not sure how mnay days I am doing this week or whether I will end up back at the child care centre more.. who knows.. I feel pretty confident there now though.. even though we got a new computer system for us to learn - just because I had got used to the last one! But the bright side is that I dont feel inferior to the other staff anynmore as they are learning it at the same time as me!!
I havent had much time to read lately because I work 8-8 and then fall into bed.. but have started on Bill brysons "The Lost Continent". Realsied I read on average 2 books a week so have probably read 208 books while I've been in NZ - and I reckon thats a conservative estimate!
I got a text from Heather the owner of the Child Care Company this week who told me to dump Kathmnadu and come and work for them as they loved me more! So nice to be missed!!
Today I have been enjoying my day off.. I was ridiculously excited as it has been almost 2 weeks. Amber and I have been shooping and stuff.. we spent 3 hours in the Warehouse trying to find me some shorts (to no avail!) but we did find me a skirt in Farmers so I am almost set up for summer!
I just got a text from my friend Vicki from Kaikoura (remember I used to hang out with her lots?). She gave birth this week to a little baby boy! I would so love to pop back and see it!
My friend Laura from the UK (in Worthing) who I used to have dinner with once a week is pregnant too. She is due on 2nd February. Congratulations Laura!! Am so excited for you! I think by the time I get back to the UK my neices are going to be starting school and everyone I know will have children!!
I have been thinking about doing my Canadian visa, it sounds so beautiful there.. I work with a few canadians and they make it sound great!! I've also met several people from Quebec since I started travelling so it would be great to visit them!
Sunday, September 09, 2007
A flirt... me?!
Okay I'm going to come clean! When I applied for the Kathmandu job I happened to notice when picking up my application form the abundence of men. Which I saw as a nice change from child care work (and okay I admit the guy who handed me the application form was pretty damn good looking). Anyway it was very disapointing once I'd started work to discover all these men have wives and girlfriends already.. but this week we are moving stores so we have a million electricians, and 12 cover staff from the agency. I had loads of fun flirting all day..! I realise I sound completely desperate there or something (well I have been single since May 28th - that is over 3 months!!!) but hey it makes the day go by faster!
Its nice to be without customers this week as well... I have got used to the rude ones though but would very much like to have a tape recorder in my pocket and say to them "Listen to yourself"!!
Emily and Kevin left this morning. I always get sad when people leave. I make friends and then they go and leave me.. but I guess thats always a downside to travelling! We went out for goodbye drinks at Smugglers in Tahunanui which was really nice. I hardly ever go out to pubs and stuff so it was a nice change.
We've had a couple of nice people staying at the backpackers this week. Olly from the UK whose only just finished school/6th form but he's really mature for his age(and probably private school I think?)He's been backpacking around Africa so I've been grilling him for info!
I still havent got to know the new managers of Shortbread Cottage, Matthew and Louise.. I spent some time training them up yesterday.. so in a minute I'll have to go home and see how they managed their first day on their own! I'm sure they'll be fine.
Amber has also stayed all week and she is moving to Nelson and has applied for a job managing a jewellery shop. Although shes moving out the backpackers hopefully we can keep on being friends.. she's coming to the Lighthouse with me tonight as we've discovered were into the same kind of stuff (reiki, tarot etc)
Its nice to be without customers this week as well... I have got used to the rude ones though but would very much like to have a tape recorder in my pocket and say to them "Listen to yourself"!!
Emily and Kevin left this morning. I always get sad when people leave. I make friends and then they go and leave me.. but I guess thats always a downside to travelling! We went out for goodbye drinks at Smugglers in Tahunanui which was really nice. I hardly ever go out to pubs and stuff so it was a nice change.
We've had a couple of nice people staying at the backpackers this week. Olly from the UK whose only just finished school/6th form but he's really mature for his age(and probably private school I think?)He's been backpacking around Africa so I've been grilling him for info!
I still havent got to know the new managers of Shortbread Cottage, Matthew and Louise.. I spent some time training them up yesterday.. so in a minute I'll have to go home and see how they managed their first day on their own! I'm sure they'll be fine.
Amber has also stayed all week and she is moving to Nelson and has applied for a job managing a jewellery shop. Although shes moving out the backpackers hopefully we can keep on being friends.. she's coming to the Lighthouse with me tonight as we've discovered were into the same kind of stuff (reiki, tarot etc)
Thursday, September 06, 2007
Childminding
What with testing out another career option in the last few weeks (Kathmandu ie travel/outdoors shops I have been thinking more about what I may want to do when I settle somewhere. I enjoy working at Kathmandu but have found myself missing children and gravitate towards them when they come in the shop! I miss the Child Care Centres but know it would be completely different in the UK what with all the govt targets and OFSTED so have been thinking about becoming a childminder. I hear they are now ofsteded in the UK but surely it cant be as bad as nurseries? Obviouslyn this is completely long term as I need a house to be able to set it up.. but its definately an option for the future - especially when I've got children of my own! I could even turn it into a mini nursery and employ one member of staff?!
I have booked my flight leaving Nelson arrivng in Taupo. So I leave Nelson on 3rd December, spend a few days in the North Island doing the Tongariro crossing and chilling out on Waiheke Island and go to Australia on 9th December - all flights booked and sorted!!
I had a day off a couple of days ago (when I put my photos up) and realiswed just how tired I was when I finally stopped. I have been working so hard lately! My next day off is in another 9 days time...
I am reading "A walk in the woods" by Bill Bryson at the moment. Am really into his books at the moment. I must be completely ignorant because I had never heard of the Apalachian trail before I started reading it!
The whole of NZ is going to be kanckered for a while as the rugby is going to be on at 4:30am!! (no rugby for me then - sorry I dont care that much!!)
Lou (one of my best freinds back home) moved to Milan yesterday, she's going to be an English teacher for then as she just last week received her certificate to say she passed her TEFL course (or it might have been TESOL?) Anyway I'm really excited for her..I know nothing about Milan except that I would love to go!! If I was in the Uk I would have gone to see her and I'm guessing my the time I go back to Europe she'll have moved on somewhere else..
I went to the cinema last night with Helen (I'm very lucky as Kathmandu the cinema and my house are all within about 1 minutes walk of one another! so I ordered a pizza to pick up after work and took it into the cinema with me (great Italian place above the cinema). Saw the film Premonition which is one of those films which is not scary for anybody but myself. For the entire film my heart was in my throat and I had my fleece pulled over my mouth for the entire film and hid under it entirely regularly!
I have the next 2 days off from kathmandu but it is my weekend managing the backpackers and on Sunday I train the new managers Matthew and Louise.. hopefully that will all be good.
Anyway gotta go.. got to get back in time for Shortland Street! (yes I really am that sad!!) I missed it last night as I was at the cinema but luckily Carolyn at work filled me in on it this morning!!
I have booked my flight leaving Nelson arrivng in Taupo. So I leave Nelson on 3rd December, spend a few days in the North Island doing the Tongariro crossing and chilling out on Waiheke Island and go to Australia on 9th December - all flights booked and sorted!!
I had a day off a couple of days ago (when I put my photos up) and realiswed just how tired I was when I finally stopped. I have been working so hard lately! My next day off is in another 9 days time...
I am reading "A walk in the woods" by Bill Bryson at the moment. Am really into his books at the moment. I must be completely ignorant because I had never heard of the Apalachian trail before I started reading it!
The whole of NZ is going to be kanckered for a while as the rugby is going to be on at 4:30am!! (no rugby for me then - sorry I dont care that much!!)
Lou (one of my best freinds back home) moved to Milan yesterday, she's going to be an English teacher for then as she just last week received her certificate to say she passed her TEFL course (or it might have been TESOL?) Anyway I'm really excited for her..I know nothing about Milan except that I would love to go!! If I was in the Uk I would have gone to see her and I'm guessing my the time I go back to Europe she'll have moved on somewhere else..
I went to the cinema last night with Helen (I'm very lucky as Kathmandu the cinema and my house are all within about 1 minutes walk of one another! so I ordered a pizza to pick up after work and took it into the cinema with me (great Italian place above the cinema). Saw the film Premonition which is one of those films which is not scary for anybody but myself. For the entire film my heart was in my throat and I had my fleece pulled over my mouth for the entire film and hid under it entirely regularly!
I have the next 2 days off from kathmandu but it is my weekend managing the backpackers and on Sunday I train the new managers Matthew and Louise.. hopefully that will all be good.
Anyway gotta go.. got to get back in time for Shortland Street! (yes I really am that sad!!) I missed it last night as I was at the cinema but luckily Carolyn at work filled me in on it this morning!!
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