Scary ghosts!

Went on a ghost tour through work last night, went to Richmond and then Port Arthur.
Was strange going back to Port Arthur. I was there back in March yet when I was there it was like I had been there the day before and to be honext I've never been that fussed on old buildings. I might pretend to be and I like to see them briefly but half an hour wandering round is enough.
But Port Arthurs history and scenery is interesting and the journey there is spectacular.. went to some of the places Paul took me to when he first picked me up hitchikign which was kind of weird.. de ja vu or something!
However, the ghost tour was really good, lots of bloody and gory stories and apparently theres been lots of ghost sightings.. and certainly there is alot of dark energy there, the rooms are cold, dark and its like you can feel the sadness and death.
There is a building which used to be the cafe where there was a massacre recently by a gunman and that building is not nice to be in.
Anyway I was glad to go, and I hadnt been to Richmond before which has the oldest bridge in Australia so it was good to go there as well.
I know I complain that I have not come travelling to be with other English backpackers but I havce to admit it was kind of nice to spend the day with other English backpackers!!
The point of the trip though was for me to be able to sell the trip at work so that worked. I know what I'm talking about now..(hopefully!)
I feel kind of guilty continually as I have a permenent position here and I know I'll let them down eventually. People talk like I'll be here forever and that makes me feel really guilty because I havent meant to give people the wrong impression but I clearly have.
I admit I have been changeable, one minute I say I want to do this, the next something else but in reality I think I know what I'm looking for its just a matter of finding out where it is!
But you cant control life. I had ideas about what might happen here, and things didnt happen as I hoped so there you go.. another path will appear..
I do know I want to see the rest of Australia before my second year visa runs out (which I havent yet applied for). So at least one thing is a definate! (feel free to remind me of this if I change my mind!!)
The job is going well anyway, seemed to have settled in.. keeping the cleaners happy (havent had my head put through a window like the last receptionist) and am attempting to use my xray vision of who to let stay here or not.. the last guy I had this feeling about (an english male backpacker) but had no reason to not let stay here and told the other staff to watch out for because I had a feeling turned out to be slightly strange.. We have several world youth day girls here at the moment who are sweet and lovely and very insistent that they be in a girls only dorm etc and they werent overly exstatic at walking in on him *?!@!@!** off in the main lounge watching animal porn on the internet.. and thats aside from locking himself in dark rooms and leaping out at people and rearranging the furniture of the entire place?!
Found the 16 year old homeless boy asleep on the couch again this morning, poor kid.. but still havent to chuck him out..
Yay to working on Sundays.. double pay!! If only every day was a Sunday!!